Thursday, May 12, 2016

  1. having lost confidence or enthusiasm; disheartened.
    "he must be feeling pretty discouraged"

    So I'm discouraged and wanted to talk to someone. I wanted to tell someone. But Facebook just doesn't cut it. It feels way too public and too much like whining. I guess I just needed to get it out. So I come here where I don't believe anyone comes anymore. Where I used to think deep thoughts. And you get to read my musings.

    When I look at my blog dashboard, there are a number of posts I wrote that I never published. They are almost all written in times of discouragement. Times when I feel I'm failing. When I feel unqualified When I'm under criticism. When people let me down. When I let myself down.  When I feel I've let others down. Yeah, that's a big one. Yet I never publish them because I guess I figure these times will pass. And they will. And they do. But the feelings are real at the time. They are real now.