tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9747317.post4289821568987870306..comments2023-10-23T10:50:24.797-04:00Comments on bloggingpaul: House of BreakfastUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9747317.post-67255121530076164232012-04-25T22:10:20.163-04:002012-04-25T22:10:20.163-04:00remember: central doesn't need you. and i say ...remember: <i>central doesn't need you</i>. and i say that in the most supportive, thought-ful way possible. [of course, you're not allowed to leave... ever... but that's beside the point]. what is expected of you, and what YOU expect of you, are not necessarily the same things.<br /><br />and of course, if you ever need help learning how to say no, i've practically perfected it. lessons are free.<br /><br />i'm tempted to get every non-clergy church staffer in the conference/district to write letters to the main offices, telling them how monumentally stupid it is to schedule pastor meetings on mondays. hmmm.mdognoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9747317.post-82258575062256229112012-04-23T23:01:44.718-04:002012-04-23T23:01:44.718-04:00Well, the reason I almost didn't post this was...Well, the reason I almost didn't post this was because I NEVER want people to feel that way. I WANT to be accessible. I LOVE to pour into people what I can. And often it is very mutual. But what I'm sensing is if I don't figure this out I'm not going to do the next 20 years as well as the first. <br /><br />And you "get" at a point that is important as I process this -- it's not that I don't want to be with the people I am with -- or even be as accessible. But I feel that my accessibility is making me LESS effective in some way -- both in ministry and with family. <br /><br />And for the record... our relationship started one sided -- I felt called to comfort and build up and "help" you work through a very hard part of your life. But it wasn't very long that the relationship felt very mutual. You gave me back a lot. You were very much "to my liking" and honestly, when you moved, I grieved quite a bit.<br /><br />Your final sentence hits on it. I'm seeking a balance. But maybe there isn't one. Was Jesus balanced? Who knows?paulhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00180889957276587776noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9747317.post-56018247734926390382012-04-23T22:46:32.453-04:002012-04-23T22:46:32.453-04:00Wow, this is powerful. It also kindles in me a ver...Wow, this is powerful. It also kindles in me a very great sense of pain and guilt and love, because you gave me so much. Your time, your hugs, your sympathy, your understanding. I didn't have too much to offer back. I took some very precious time from you when you could have been doing something more to your liking. I pray for you often and I thank you for a debt that I cannot repay. I also hope that you find the balance that you are looking for.Danielhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01769979884054729798noreply@blogger.com